Hidetoshi, it pains me to hear about your continued problems. Just know that your friends are looking forward to seeing more of you here on the forum now that you might have the time and inspiration to create new puzzles.
Sorry for my unsuitable announcement.
But this is not negative but positive retire.
We (not only I but also some of my office friends) are thinking about it, 'retire from this office'.
Because the is not good for working, we are always watched from watchers about our works, our salaries are not enough for our hard working, and so on.
This is a sample, my friend told to his boss about his retire (if he is offered to go to Tokyo) about two weeks ago, so his boss answered him, "I see, so your final working day is two weeks later."
Today is his final working day...
Yes, my situation is a little better than his situation. X-P
This office is really merciless to employees...
Maybe what this world needs more of right now is not another sharp and talented brain locked up in an office in Tokyo, but someone with a heart of gold who cares for the sick and elderly, and who also has time and personal experiences that may be of great value to others. Like you said, this may be the beginning of something better for you. You'll find your way, and your friends will be here wishing you the very best.
If I don't mind about high salary, perhaps there are some companies in here.
But I want to recover my depression at the beginning, so I'll recover from my
depression, with making puzzles.
Fortunately, I'll be able to get the unemployeement pay about a half of year.
So I will be able to get the recovering time.